Oh To Be Free

So yesterday I got to stay home part of the day because we had a work thing in the middle of the day "off campus" that I had to attend. It was so nice to be able to get up, take my time, take the kids to daycare, run some errands and then get to the work thing. I have to say the work thing was quite enjoyable. Then I got to leave and go and pick up my girls. I LOVE BEING ABLE TO PICK UP MY GIRLS. There is nothing like walking through the doors of daycare and hear your oldest go "MOMMY!"

The thing is...I had to come back to work today. I had to come back to the daily grind of gridlock traffic and drama. Oh and there is so much work drama right now, so much to make you just want to walk in and slap someone right off the bat because the day is going to be bad anyway.

How I envy the stay at home mom. How I envy the fact that you get to get up in the morning and actually stay in your PJs while you read the paper or maybe have breakfast with the kids. How I envy not having to put on makeup if you don't want to because you know what your kids love you with or without the makeup. How I envy the stay at home mom that has a side career of being crafty and making things you love.

One day that will be me. I may be 80 before it happens but I will stay home because I can.

To Write is to VENT

So I decided to start a blog. I needed a way to vent the frustrations of being a working mother. Things have been really getting to me lately and the stress has built up to a point to where I want to run outside and scream for no reason. I actually had a quiet moment (on the toilet) reading my Parents magazine and there was an article about blogging moms. I said to myself, "I can do that! That's it! That's how I will get all this out."

Now here I am, sitting at the computer getting it all out for today. Maybe I should start with who I am and what this crazy career that I have is. My name is Christi, I'm 32 and the mother of two beautiful girls. Chloe and Cayleigh . I'm married to Chris.

Myself? I'm a DJ for a country radio station. I work from 10-3 on the air. Pretty cool right? It is. That's not my only job though, I'm also the Assistant Program Director and Music Director. Which means I assist the program director in whatever he wants and I work with all the record labels to get their music played on our station. I have met every major and not so major country star, I haven't bought a CD since 1999...well who even buys those anymore, and I go to every concert I want for FREE. Yes extremely cool job.

The problem is I have NO time for me or my family. It's really frustrating. It's get up and if I'm not too tired at 4:30am go to the gym for a quick work out, get dressed while getting the girls dressed, then hopefully out the door by 7:30 (THIS NEVER HAPPENS). Drop the girls off, sit in gridlock, go go go all day. If I'm lucky I get out of the office by 5:30 (THIS NEVER HAPPENS) and sit in more gridlock, come home to craziness, bath bottle bed for Cayleigh. Finish dinner if Chris has even been able to start it, bathe Chloe, read 5 million stories and probably fall asleep in Chloe's room just to do it all over again.

I know it sounds like I'm complaining, and I am a little, but I DO LOVE BEING A MOM! I LOVE IT! Every second of it, even the bad times when they are sick and pooping everwhere or just going insane, I love it. It's everything I have ever wanted. Now if I could just balance the two better we would be good :)

So I'm writing this blog to vent, be creative and seek out advice and comments if possible. I'm probably NOT going to edit myself so excuse me in advance if I offend you. Feel free to yell at me, argue with me, praise is always appreciated...whatever... this is going to be fun!

Me and the hubby